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Candle Burning

Posted by: cher | November 24, 2009 | 3 Comments |

Aloha!  Reflection ~ I am Worthy

This week I really got the importance of valuing myself and how that tells people how much I am to be valued.  I have not been contributing to my household while I have been launching The Peaceful Woman.  The conversation in my head, for which I was having a growing awareness of, was “I need to work harder, to justify my being taken care of”.  What CRAP!

I was burning every candle I could get my hands on and lighting each end!

Last weekend I went over to Honolulu with my beloved Partner Keone for a little rest, a mini-break, relaxation, and to celebrate his Father’s B-Day.  I have a wonderful time.  As the plane approached Maui on our return trip home, I started to feel anxious.  My “real” life started to creep in and thoughts shifted to how much work I “needed” to get done.  The pressure I had put on my self to “produce value” grew with every mile we grew closer to Maui.  I was stressed… again!

Now, I do not know about you, but this is the exact feeling I had that created the energy to walk away from my career and old life.  And now here it is again, coming into my Maui sanctuary!  No, this will not due I thought!!!!

I added beach time and swim time back into my calendar that night!  Latterly, I got out my highlighters and I blocked out beach & swimming time out through the end of the year.  Keone was an amazing support and encouraged me and gave me a high-five at the end of day Monday when I came home from the pool!

It has been 9 days since I returned from Honolulu and I have been more productive, fulfilled, and happy in these nine days then I have since I lit all those candles!

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